A Personal Battle ~ Spiritual Warfare

Do you believe in such a thing? If you don't, you should. It's very real and it's very close. Just on the other side of the veil. Alot of people do not realize that there is a big battle waging right now. A battle over YOU and me! Yiii!! It's quite a thought to comprehend. But let me tell you about what i have been going through lately.

I started fostering again. This time, my nephew Gavin. He just turned 11, on November 20. We actually share a birthday. It's kinda neat, don't ya think? Yea, I know you agree. So anyway, it all began in early June of this year. The child care agency "Tikinagan Child & Family Services" called and asked me to foster my nephew.

I kind of agreed, but i wasn't really sure if i should. 'Cause of my nephew's condition. He was diagnosed with FAS/FAE (Fetal Alcohol Syndrome/Effects) when he was younger. His late mother drank while he was in her. His condition is more 'effects'. He behaviour is affected. Very affected. LOL. But, he is such a great boy when he wants to be. He even admitted to his cousin Joshim, that he can be naughty when he wants to. lol.

My nephew, Gavin, tends to make up stories, like lies. It's a normal thing to him. He does not think of the consequences of his tall tales *L* He use to get some people into trouble by saying things, like being physically abused. He also loved to steal. Just to see what he could get away with. I would find quite a stash of things in his room. Like chalk from school, lighters, cigarettes, even though i don't smoke.

Okay, now. Let's get to the good stuff. LOL.jk. It's not good, it's actually dark, not of light. I've noticed that he was starting to misbehave constantly, away from home. Oh, he was an angel at home *L* When school started. It went well for the first couple of weeks. I would tell him every day to be good and to listen to his teacher, and most importantly...do not bother the other kids (he's known to pester others until physical violence is imposed on him). He would be disruptive in class, constantly chatter, tease and throw things at others, thinking he was funny. Some could not take it any more. He would come home with bloody noses & shiners. He was even choked out by one of his cousin's *sigh* and got his head slammed against the wall a few times. Kids! :O

I was at  my wit's end LOL. I finally asked him "why are you always misbehaving? why do you have to steal and lie? His reply would be "I don't know" Then i asked him, "okay Gavin i want you to tell me the truth now" "are you hearing things? is something telling you to be bad?" "are you seeing things?"

He said "Yes!" *whew* I knew it. Now it was making sense. I know he has behavioral problems, but it was just ridiculous! LOL. He said, "I hear a loud voice and a softer voice. The loud voice sounds evil. Bad. The quieter voice is soft, he can barely hear it, cause of the loud voice. So this loud voice, has been telling him to be bad, to swear, to pick on his younger nephew & niece, to steal and to lie...to be outright 'naughty'! lol his own word. He also said, he's been listening to it ever since he first started hearing it (which was in June, when he came to live with me).

I then asked him about what he sees. He said, it was bothering him at night and that it woke him up. It stood over him, by his bed. I told him to describe it. He told me, it was a dark shadow and that it had 4 eyes. He also said, it would poke him all over. I was like "Oh!" He use to complain about having sore legs in the morning. "As if something was poking me, last night". NOW, I started to get worried for him.

I asked his dad, my brother, if he was dedicated when he was a baby. He said, "No". I was like "NO??" So that was another piece of the puzzle of Gavin Morrisseau! *L* The next day, I called up my Pastor and told him about what has been happening. I told him, I wanted my house prayed for and blesssed...an' that i wanted my nephew dedicated to the Lord. He agreed. It is not safe for a child to go on living without being dedicated. It is a must for believers. So, it was arranged.

It happened on a Wednesday night (October 30). We went to church for his dedication. During the service, he got up & walked. Getting restless. He said, he went outside for awhile. When he came back, he sat down next to me and said, "Lisa, I seen the dark shadow again" I said, "where?" He said, "next door, at the playground" It was just standing there staring at me". Eventually, he got up again. I guess, he had to go and look again. He came back, this time he told me, he saw another shadow, but this one was waving at him (looked friendly). He then said, the dark shadow was fleeing, the one that bothered him.

Finally, we were called up. The Pastors, the congregation and some elders came up to the front. Pastor David, asked me, if i would raise him up good to know the Lord...an' to guide & teach him the way. I replied "yes". They then laid their hands on him and then on me. The Pastor anointed us with oil and dedicated Gavin to the Lord. After all was done, we went back & sat down. A few minutes later, Gavin leans over & asks "is it raining?" I said "Oh, you hear rain?" he says "Yea" I told him "well, you're probably hearing Heaven's rain, falling down on us!" He goes "EeeeHeee!" *L* We had a good laugh. We were so refreshed. Happy. Yay! We were touched by God that night!

So the next day, was Halloween. The Pastors came over (David and Randy). We talked for abit. They asked questions about the house. I told them, I have experienced paranormal activity before and that it was nothing new to me. BUT, i was more concerned for my nephew's safety. An' that I didn't want him to be frightened by this thing anymore ~ It definitely is not a human spirit, but a dark spirit, since it is able to touch and  manifest. They agreed. The room that had the most activity was a bedroom, but i had the walls taken off. It is now, like an extra living room. That is where i have my big t.v. So it's open. Gavin says, he seen & felt it there the most. I use to wonder why he would be afraid to be alone in the house. I left him alone, during the day, before school started & I began working again on August 12. He told me, he would hear scratches or bangs on the wall while he was watching t.v. in my room.

I use to experience alot of things in my home. I guess, I just got use to it. My grown nephews and nieces all have had experiences. lol. Poor kids. Haha. They are all grown now. Ya, so...the pastors began. They prayed and walked throughout the house, anointing everywhere and everything. So good, I tell ya! Even my pets feel so at ease now. They don't sleep in my room anymore, they sleep out there in the living rooms. Just great, I now sleep alone in my bedroom!! LOL jk. As they blessed the house, it got too powerful for me. I started crying! Wow. I felt the power of God come to the house. The Blood of Jesus was pleaded over us, over the house and over the dog & cat. Hutton & Rubby, my fur boys! LOL. I felt shaky, I felt the power of the Holy Ghost.  OOH WEEE!! lol.

My nephew Gavin stared at me, wondering what was wrong with me. LOL. *sheesh* That boy! He doesn't realize what auntie is doing for him. Battling for him!! an' I Won!! After they left, Gavin took off right away to go trick or treating. geez. I tried to keep him home. So, I was left alone. I started praising and thanking the Lord for sending His servants to me that day! I felt so wonderful. Peaceful. Protected! Everyone who comes to my place now, feels it, something good. Something that passes all understanding. It is pure LOVE, the love of the Heavenly Father.

So, Gavin says he hasn't seen anything and hasn't heard anything since. But he still has his moments. At school. He got suspended for 2 days. He stabbed another kid in the back with a pencil. Yiii!! I was shocked, I was practically in tears when the principal called me at work. I am on the verge of a mental collapse! loljk. Nah, i am not. But i tell ya, he is testing my patience and he is pushing his limits. 

I know, breathe! BREATHE! Sometimes i just wanna throw in the towel. But there is no one else who will take him. I will continue to do my best to care for him. For as long as the Lord wills. When he hits his high school years, that will be the time for him to "git!" lol. Hopefully, he can return to his dad instead of staying in foster care until he is 18.

So can you, pray for me! Hehehe. To make it through this chapter of my life. I look forward to the next chapter tho. Gavin-free! *L* I love joking around with me. Making him laugh. He has a weird laugh to boot! My favorite is when i ask him "An' who are you? AND what are you doing in my house?" Haha. He just laughs like crazy! *L* 

YES, I look forward to going out into the world! I plan on going overseas!! Do some missionary work. The government better approve my passport application! LOL. I wanna go save souls for the kingdom of God. Oh yea! oh yea!

Dreams

I have noticed that quite recently, I have been getting spiritually attacked in my dreams. It does not bother me much, for I know I am under the MOST HIGH! HE is my shield and my protector. 

I honestly love it how my spirit brings it forward. Knowing that I have HIM with me. That I could utter HIS name, awake or not. A name that is so powerful. The name above all names. Sweet Yeshua. My love. 

There was this dream I had months ago. It's still very fresh in my mind. I was held against my will in a very dark place. I could hear a demon moving around, laughing. I started yelling "JESUS"!! "JESUS"!! The demon would get really mad and start throwing things around. Even though, the noise was so deafening, I kept on shouting!!  "JESUS"!! "JESUS"!! It was getting madder and madder. Making such a racket, I don't know what he was throwin' around! All of a sudden, the glorious light came...and i woke up!

In another dream, I was being hunted down. I tried to hide, but I was eventually found. I got attacked by a mob of people. They must have been about 10 of them. They were punching and kicking me. I lay on the ground, bloody and bruised! They really hated me. Somehow, I managed to get away. 

As I limped away, one of them followed me. I told him to leave me alone! He was about to come and attack me again! I turned to face him and said, that it wouldn't be a good idea for him to hurt me again. In a loud voice I shouted "MY GOD SHALL AVENGE ME"!! "MY GOD SHALL AVENGE ME"!! "MY GOD SHALL AVENGE ME"!!

He stopped and fled. I sure scared him with my proclamation. As, I turned to walk away, I realized I was not walking alone. Something was walking with me. I looked down and saw my late dog Hudson walking beside me. As you might have read on a previous post, he passed away in September 2011. I was so happy to see him. We walked and walked until we came into a park. 

We stood around for abit. Looking around. That is when I seen my black cat, Rubby. He was also injured. He was mangled. Half of his face was hanging down. I tried to put it back in place. I sobbed. I picked him up. I cradled him in my arms. As I was crying, he meowed softly to me. He was also injured from that mob. My cat is my true companion. He's been with me now for 5 years. June 21 is his B-Day! :P He's outlived many of his canine brothers & sisters <3

I love how God sends us furry companions (pets). They don't always have to be human. I love my fur kids, so much! God made dogs and cats to be by our side for a purpose :)

Dream of the Ogre

i had such a awesome dream last night. my nephew Gavin (10) and i were talking and walking down this narrow path. it was at dusk. not too dark yet. walking in front of us, was this little person. we looked at each other because we did not notice him right away. he just suddenly appeared.

my nephew asked "who is that"? the person was covered from head to toe. wrapped up. i said, "i don't know". we became very cautious then. as our pace slowed down. the little person, slowly turned to look at us. i sensed evil right away. we stopped in our tracks. he was now looking at us. his face had a grimace. an ugly menacing thing with sharp teeth and beady little eyes.

my nephew stood behind me. it started coming towards us. i grab a big stick on the ground. it was smiling creepily as it inched it's way towards us. i told it to stay back. we were walking in circles. i swung the stick at him. it laughed. so eerily. he kept coming closer. he was so ugly. it was a little ogre! a demon!

i shouted "in the name of Jesus, you will leave"! it twitched but, continued to walk towards us. it did not even say a word. which made it more unearthly. we kept on circling. i was so determined to destroy this thing. i was not afraid of it! i knew i had power within me. an' that there was power in the words, i uttered! again i shouted "in the name of Jesus, you will leave"! it stopped. as if frozen. finally, really loud, i screamed "IN THE NAME OF JESUS, YOU WILL LEAVE"!  *poof* it was gone! 

when i woke up! i was like "wow"!! LOL i love my dreams. it makes my whole self stronger. there is Spiritual Warfare going on! it's all real :D